like a diamond in the sky

i'm so fucking bored of tumblr, gonna unfollow some people

my day has consisted of

• decongestive drugs
• guitar hero
• sleeping in class
• yellow paint on my arm

in no particular order

funeral:

ewryan:geneticmutations:

The core symptom of depersonalization disorder is the subjective experience of unreality, and as such there are no clinical signs. Common descriptions are: watching oneself from a distance; out-of-body experiences; a sense of just going through the motions; feeling as though one is in a dream or movie; not feeling in control of one’s speech or physical movements; and feeling detached from one’s own thoughts or emotions. Individuals with the disorder commonly describe a feeling as though time is ‘passing’ them by and they are not in the notion of the present. These experiences may cause a person to feel uneasy or anxious since they strike at the core of a person’s identity and consciousness.

Some of the more common factors that exacerbate dissociative symptoms are negative effects, stress, subjective threatening social interaction, and unfamiliar environments. Factors that tend to diminish symptoms are comforting interpersonal interactions, intense physical or emotional stimulation, and relaxation. Factors identified as relieving symptom severity such as diet, exercise, alcohol and fatigue, are listed by others as worsening symptoms.

Fears of going crazy, brain damage, and losing control are common complaints. Individuals report occupational impairments as they feel they are working below their ability, and interpersonal troubles since they have an emotional disconnection from those they care about. Neurophysiological testing has shown deficits in attention, short-term memory and spatial-temporal reasoning. Depersonalization disorder is associated with cognitive disruptions in early perceptual and attentional processes.

i had this really badly last summer :/

seeing Fantastic Mr Fox tonight!

so excited!

i'm finally awake

it’s 2:46 pm

i'm sorry, but i love these

STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.

C aring is Creepy - The Shins

H ere Comes Your Man - The Pixies

A ll the Small Things - blink-182

R oad to Joy - Bright Eyes

L ightness - Death Cab For Cutie

I ‘ve got Your Number - Passion Pit

E lectric Feel - MGMT

STEP TWO:
– Name: Charlie Ross Parsons
– Birth date: Oct. 26
– Nickname: Charizard
– Eye Color: brown
– Hair Color: brown
– Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

STEP THREE:
–The shoes you wore today: black converse
– Your weaknesses: fractions
– Your fear(s): serial killers/stalkers, centipedes 
– Your perfect pizza: lots of veggies
– Goal you’d like to achieve: study fim at NYU

STEP FOUR:
– Your best physical feature: i like my eye color
– Your bedtime? whenever
– Most missed memory? yearbook class last year

STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? coke
– McDonald’s or Burger King: neither
– Adidas or Nike: nike
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
– Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
– Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Smoke: no
– Curse: yep
– Sing: no
– Dance: like a dork
– Take a shower every…: night and some mornings
–Want to go to college: YES!
– Like(d) high school: eh…
– Want to get married: probably not
– Get motion sickness: rarely
– Think you’re attractive: not really
– Think you’re a health freak: no
– Get along with your parents: usually

STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: not sure
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
– Eaten Sushi: today, actually
– Been on stage: no
– Gone skating: no
– Made homemade cookies: i ate them…
– Gone Skinny dipping: nope
– Stolen anything: nope

STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
– If so, was it mixed company: N/A
- Flashed anyone: no
– Been beaten up: yes
– Shoplifted: no

STEP NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: no clue
– Numbers of Children: i dunno
– Describe your Dream Wedding: i really don’t know
– What country would you most like to visit? England

STEP TEN:
In the opposite/same sex..
– Best eye color?: blue/green
– Best hair color?: brown
– Short hair or long hair?: long
– Height: doesn’t matter

STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: like, 6?
– Number of CDs that I own: who the hell knows
– Number of tattoos: zero
– Number of piercings: none

Personal Quiz
Who were you with yesterday? everyone at school
What woke you up this morning? my sore throat
Where are you? in my bed
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? a boring day
Do you like anybody? yes

THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? no
Passed out because of alcohol? nearly
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? my computer’s dying battery

THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? i dunno
What do you want to be when you grow up? something to do with movies
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? college

IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? no
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? 7 minutes ago
Do you listen to music every day? yes
Do you still go trick or treating? maybe
What was the last thing you ate? a cough drop
Are you a fast typer? kinda
Whats your favorite type of soda? blue bubblegum
Have you ever moved? once when i was 2 and once when i was 10
Have you ever won an award? yep
Are you listening to music right now? about to listen to Oasis
How long ’till your birthday? it just past
When were you the saddest in your whole life? this past summer
What time is it? 10:31 pm
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? sell
Who makes you mad? several things
Have you ever heard a song written about you? no
Something you want to happen in 2009? i dunno
Summer 2009? terrible
Honestly, do you miss 2008? yes

HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? green
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? i’m tired
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? coughing 
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? no
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? i never really talk on the phone
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? yes
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?  people who don’t read books
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? no
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? no
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? yes
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? yes
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? sometimes
17. Honestly, are you in denial? no
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? no
19. Honestly, do you like anyone?  mhmm
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? no

ANGER SECTION
1. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? shattered a wine glass
2. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yes
3. Do you swear when you’re mad? often

CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? a few days ago
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? yes
3. Do certain songs make you cry? oh yes
4. What usually makes you cry? loneliness 

HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? eh…
2. What makes you the happiest? gossip girl and the beatles